[00:00.00] 作词 : 周震南 [00:01.00] 作曲 : 周震南 [00:02.00] 制作人 : 大迈MizarMin@Audio-Axis [00:05.00]Part I: [00:21.49] [00:21.69]I think I’m confused [00:22.73]My deepest soul is fading and disappearing [00:24.58]Two people talking [00:25.64]One showed me how to love [00:26.23]Another one told me ‘You gotta clean them’ [00:27.90]That’s why people called them [00:28.87]Angel and demon [00:29.62]Good versus evil [00:30.53]I’m afraid to face them [00:31.02]…I’m suffering! [00:31.96]That’s what happened [00:32.82]Every night I have been tortured by pain [00:34.34]‘We should try to give people more love’ [00:35.87]‘Not my business, …’ [00:37.12] [00:37.42]‘We don’t have any right to judge’ [00:38.83]‘He’s definitely trying to make up a lie for us’ [00:40.01] [00:40.71]‘I’m good with the quit and strove with none’ [00:42.20]‘I’ll be the greatest…’ [00:43.12] [00:43.32]‘I don’t care the money and the fame’ [00:44.87]‘I’m gonna buy the fancy clothes drive the fastest cars’ [00:46.43] [00:46.83]More than 700 days [00:47.59]I’ve been taking a long rest but I feel more tired [00:50.64]Tryna calm but sometimes art’s come from my anger [00:53.75]I believe in … [00:54.69]Always showing love but I know I’m a liar [00:56.70]Tryna control violence in my head [00:58.59]But still wanna clean that … [01:00.00] [01:00.24]Have you ever doubted your faith? [01:01.54]And tryna raise a few questions? [01:03.38]God hath leaden feet, but iron hands [01:04.98] That’s why I’m confused [01:06.53]All I see is a lot of people their own life has been taken [01:09.54]I’m not a Christian but for somehow I’m praying [01:14.02] [01:15.02]I’m praying [01:16.83]For everybody [01:18.28]For you [01:19.32]For me [01:20.17]For someone who’s pure and has loyalty [01:23.03]I’m praying cuz I know it [01:25.34]People gotta show their true love forever [01:33.59] [01:37.42]Ok I’m done I feel calm [01:39.84]Just wanna ask you something [01:41.42]Things you’ve told me, I found it [01:43.15]But why is that all wrong? [01:44.61]I’m confused [01:45.87]I wonder why the truth is gone [01:47.75]When I need someone to save me [01:49.65]Why don’t you respond? [01:50.75] [01:50.95]Now you blame me for I’m losing soul and faith [01:53.46]Tell me what’s the price for being a human I gotta pay [01:56.82]I’m not done yet [01:57.98]I know there’s something beautiful I gotta find it [02:00.37]I don’t believe in destiny [02:01.69]There’s only judge and punish [02:03.28] [02:03.48]Part II : [02:33.03] [02:33.53]如果要杀死一个人 [02:34.77]只能选择用一种凶器 [02:35.95] [02:36.05]让他带着愧疚活着会比利刃更加锋利 [02:38.46] [02:38.66]选择逃离将我自己封闭 [02:40.43] [02:40.63]仅存的善意正审视着我并发出抗议 [02:42.56] [02:42.76]蜷缩在那沙发边的缝隙 [02:44.94]等待着倒计时 [02:45.76]等待着最后被迫放弃 [02:47.16] [02:47.36]面对这突如其来的痛击 [02:49.16]我无法接受现实 [02:50.41]此刻显得无比抗拒 [02:51.66]盯着破碎不堪的屏幕 [02:52.62]投影出我做错的脸 [02:53.68] [02:53.88]深呼吸以后 [02:54.64]习惯性地闭上我没落的眼 [02:55.78] [02:55.98]安慰自己 [02:56.87]人性有错落的面 [02:58.00] [02:58.11]戒不掉的懦弱 [02:59.05]我一次又一次堕落地捡 [03:00.38] [03:00.58]默默地演 [03:01.40]演一条落魄的犬 [03:02.17] [03:02.37]种种行为都幼稚得像是个未破的茧 [03:04.70]没兑现过的言 [03:05.51] [03:05.71]没能赶上最后一面 [03:06.90]算来算去后悔是否来得太过多了点 [03:08.75] [03:08.95]所以 我试着去弥补这些事呢 [03:11.18]去习惯被人怒吼 [03:12.28]去习惯被人弃舍 [03:13.36]去习惯被人遗忘 [03:14.39]去习惯无能为力 [03:15.24] [03:15.44]想要保护她 [03:16.09]奈何我只是个可悲的戏子 [03:17.21] [03:17.41]是的 [03:18.86]我全部通通记得 [03:19.74] [03:19.94]曾经选择忘记的 [03:20.87]我现在选择记得 [03:22.03] [03:22.23]我现在把我自己剖开 [03:24.02]希望你感到赤诚而不是感到赤裸 [03:26.03] [03:26.33]Part III: [03:34.07] [03:34.77]我曾经讲出谎言 [03:35.61]试图躲入那些个假话 [03:37.02] [03:37.12]我曾经想要得到同情 [03:38.17]把多处的痛苦夸大 [03:39.08] [03:39.28]我曾经眼睁睁的看着多数的人被打压 [03:41.08] [03:41.38]我曾经目睹这一切后做多数人做的哑巴 [03:43.56] [03:43.76]我曾经面对珍视的事说不 [03:45.16]说无伤大雅 [03:45.90] [03:46.00]后来也会想方设法去拖住某一个刹那 [03:47.89] [03:48.09]我曾经为了让她开心说出编出的大话 [03:50.37]最后没能兑现她告诉我说 没事的 傻瓜 [03:52.67] [03:52.87]曾经逃避那些挫折 [03:53.63]把错误怪罪给爸爸 [03:54.69]曾经把愤怒的情绪过度地带给了妈妈 [03:56.70]曾经看着她痛哭后 [03:57.92]被错付的情绪夹杂 [03:59.05]他们看我的眼神 [04:00.04]从充满爱意到充满了害怕 [04:01.21] [04:01.41]讲到这些犯过的错 [04:02.46]泪流得不止 [04:03.31]我无法挽回这一篇篇 [04:04.47]无法回头的故事 [04:05.43]每一次叫醒自己告诫自己 [04:06.76]最后也如此 [04:07.45]讲出些伪善的借口 [04:08.55]随后又感到很无耻 [04:09.71] [04:09.91]我的神啊 [04:10.96]我无法分清我的善伪 [04:12.09]但是你能否听到我的这一句句忏悔 [04:14.48]每一次失去后来的反悔 [04:16.43]这马后炮的嘴脸现在让我感到反胃 [04:18.64]很惭愧 [04:19.45]我真心感到惭愧 [04:21.07]躲在角落不敢面对的我像个残废 [04:23.74]Wake up wake up wake up and fight [04:25.65]我不想他们再次为了我悲伤而含泪 [04:25.89] 编曲Music Arranger:大迈MizarMin/Tunga/陈建平 [04:26.13] 音效设计Sound Designer:大迈MizarMin [04:26.38] 键盘手Keyboard Player:陈建平 [04:26.62] 吉他Guitarist:赵勤 [04:26.87] 钢琴手Pianist:布达佩斯交响乐团 [04:27.11] 交响乐团Symphony Orchestra:布达佩斯交响乐团 [04:27.35] 交响乐助理Orchestra Assitant:Rhett Dahl@Audio-Axis [04:27.60] 混音师Mixing Engineer:张平@Audio-Axis [04:27.84] 录音师Recording Engineer:大迈MizarMin @Audio-Axis 匠维音界/周震南 [04:28.09] 和声Back Vocalist:周震南 [04:28.33] 母带Mastering Engineer:张平@Audio-Axis [04:28.57] 企划Creative Planning:皕卅廿/小虫 [04:28.82] 监制Executive Producer:辛志宇 [04:29.06] 音乐制作 Produced by: 哇唧唧哇娱乐(天津)有限公司 Wajijiwa Entertainment (Tianjin) Co., Ltd. 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