[00:02.32]Now look here, in the house opposite
[00:04.72]Black gate posts with a concrete frog squatting on top of it
[00:07.92]Through the hallway
[00:10.10]Ancient wallpaper
[00:11.53]Nicotine gold
[00:13.08]Up the stairs, rickety
[00:14.65]Loaded with history
[00:16.07]Here in the top flat
[00:18.83]Flowers on the windowsill
[00:20.22]Little breeze fluttering the petals as they stare out
[00:23.32]At the city streets
[00:26.39]Gemma is awake
[00:28.67]What woke her?
[00:30.00]Open eyes
[00:30.93]Street lights float slowly through broken blinds
[00:34.34]She watches
[00:35.10]As the light plays across the tattered carpet
[00:38.76]And she holds herself tight in the room's half darkness
[00:41.23]It's cold
[00:42.41]She wedges her hands underneath her armpits
[00:46.11]It's 4:18
[00:49.08]And Gemma's thinking
[00:52.39]Before I was a adult
[00:54.35]I was a little wreck
[00:55.86]Peddling whatever I could get my grubby mitts on
[00:58.56]Ketamine for beakfast
[00:59.86]Bad girls were drinking with
[01:01.21]I gave 'em puppy dog eyes for the acid on their fingertips
[01:03.66]Heads in the basement
[01:05.49]Lips without faces
[01:07.42]Getting faced in, half-baked in a bakery
[01:08.91]Eating pastries
[01:10.10]Desperate for a body who could save me
[01:11.95]But I never really wondered what they gave me
[01:14.76]Always wanted something else
[01:16.23]Sweating in the door queue
[01:17.29]Spittin' like a villain in the pantomime old shoes
[01:19.80]Bad teeth
[01:20.83]Drinking in the rain with my ghost
[01:22.20]Sitting in the back of the class, comatose
[01:24.39]Uh, feelings on my back in the dark
[01:26.89]Hold me close
[01:27.68]But you never held
[01:28.69]I did some things I swore I'd never tell
[01:30.66]'Til that night you tried to kill me
[01:31.96]Run me down with your car in the snow
[01:33.00]I didn't realize I thought you would go
[01:35.58]Every day I live lives in the day I wake up in
[01:38.47]My dreams are all screaming "Oh ****!"
[01:40.18]But I'm fine now
[01:41.29]Something remains its still pulling me
[01:43.12]Yeah my future is bright but my past tryin' to ruin me
[01:46.26]Tried to change it but I know
[01:48.88]If you're good to me I will let you go
[01:52.10]Tried to fight it but I'm sure
[01:54.20]If you're bad to me I will like you more
[01:57.36]I saw some things when I was young
[01:58.96]That made me who I would become
[01:59.80]I fill them with me everyday
[02:01.03]'Cause if you try and run away
[02:02.37]They run beside you place for place
[02:03.96]Trip you up and drag your face
[02:05.09]Freedom out of every waste
[02:06.35]They chancing every bit of taste
[02:07.61]Heart is sprayed up with the names of all my friends who lost their way
[02:10.27]Doesn't change it all remains
[02:11.81]It takes my strength and gives me shame
[02:12.98]All I want is someone great
[02:14.52]To make me everything I ain't
[02:15.52]But the only ones for me
[02:17.05]Are the ones that shouldn't be
[02:18.31]Even though I'm doing good
[02:19.74]I'm working hard, my work is strong
[02:21.04]Might be fun just for a while to go back to where my hurt is from
[02:23.57]Rinse myself through emptiness
[02:25.11]and push my body close to anybody who can recognize the presence of my ghost
[02:27.81]Tried to change it but I know
[02:31.53]If you're good to me I will let you go
[02:34.64]Tried to fight it but I'm sure
[02:36.83]If you're bad to me I will like you more
[02:39.62]Tried to change it but I know
[02:42.05]If you're good to me I will let you go
[02:45.02]Tried to fight it but I'm sure
[02:47.36]If you're bad to me I will like you more