[00:30.250]Man, I don't even know what happened
[00:32.313]I was born inside of this sx1t
[00:33.620]My fvxkin' parents scrappin', I was mortified as a kid
[00:36.702]Police always at my house all because of my daddy's temper
[00:39.811]Man, this sx1t been goin' on 'bout as long as I can remember
[00:42.971]He always blamed my mom for this sx1t he didn't accomplish
[00:45.923]I'd hide in the corner like a guinea pig in the process
[00:48.771]Just knowin' he 'bout to smack the fvxkin' teeth out her mouth
[00:51.644]It's like when it came to some type of drama
[00:53.812]He got aroused, no joke
[00:55.380]There was the moments where dad would slowly be creepin' up
[00:58.044]I would jump in front of my mama, "Please don't beat her up"
[01:00.970]I ain't never spoke on this sx1t, the memories are rough
[01:03.922]Smiles and hugs, that's just somethin' you'll never see in us
[01:07.082]You know the pain when your parents tell you to go and play
[01:09.747]Then hours later you see your mom and she got a swollen face
[01:13.038]I hope you don't relate, I just learned how to cope today
[01:15.886]From the days when I would pick up the phone and say
[01:18.263]I gotta leave here now
[01:20.562]My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
[01:24.010]And they've been goin' back and forth all night
[01:26.883]I wanna stay at your house tonight
[01:29.469]'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
[01:32.787]I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
[01:35.660]Can I stay at your house?
[01:38.847]I want to stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
[01:42.374]I would go to school feelin' so frightened, yeah, I was scared
[01:45.378]Not knowin' if I'ma go home findin' my momma dead
[01:48.513]Every other fvxkin' day, dad was always losin' control
[01:51.334]He was actin' like a fvxkin' ape, runnin' loose in our home
[01:54.338]Man ever since I was born they was pessimistic and torn
[01:57.264]It's evident, but regardless they'd never get a divorce
[02:00.242]God, I wish they got around it, just checkin' into some counselin'
[02:03.533]We could have been a happy family inside our house again
[02:06.563]I said again is if we ever were, that's false
[02:09.332]Sx1t I dealt with growin' up, will forever hurt, I'm lost
[02:12.180]We weren't nothin' like the families I used to see on the sitcoms
[02:15.314]We were horrible with bonds, I can no longer sit calm
[02:18.344]I would see that my friends had a life at home, that was peaceful
[02:21.296]They were lovable people, who didn't function like we do
[02:24.222]Oh how I wish I can redo the pain of the wicked days
[02:27.122]When I'd pick up the telephone, call a friend and say
[02:29.760]I gotta leave here now
[02:32.163]My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
[02:35.481]And they've been goin' back and forth all night
[02:38.407]I wanna stay at your house tonight
[02:41.045]'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
[02:44.180]I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
[02:47.158]Can I stay at your house?
[02:50.397]I wanna stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)
[02:54.315]I ain't placin' the blame sayin' it's mom or dad's fault
[02:57.267]But all those traumas I had stuck with me as an adult
[03:00.271]And it ignited these mad thoughts that I seem to have often
[03:03.458]Yeah, that's Hopsin, music is where my last straw went
[03:06.514]Now I'm devoted to always give you my true life
[03:09.127]The love I never felt growin' up I get it from you guys
[03:12.209]Please don't get it twisted, I love both my parents to death
[03:15.135]I just think there's issues a lot of fvxkin' parents neglect
[03:18.426]We all got these traumas we carry and sometimes it's scary
[03:21.378]'Cause we buried a nest, right there in our chest
[03:23.677]And we subconsciously air and project our nightmares and the stress
[03:26.733]That we dealt with when we were younger
[03:28.353]And that's why therapy's best, listen
[03:30.390]If you got kids of your own and you throwin' tantrums
[03:33.029]Don't be oblivious and assume that it won't impact them
[03:36.059]Children follow the protocol of their parents' blueprint
[03:38.828]So when there's an issue, they might handle it just how you did (You did, you did)
[03:44.496]I gotta leave here now
[03:46.691]My mom and dad actin' crazy and this ain't right
[03:49.956]And they've been goin' back and forth all night
[03:52.908]I wanna stay at your house tonight
[03:55.598]'Cause I don't wanna to hear my dad fightin' momma no more
[03:58.785]I don't wanna hear the police at the front door
[04:01.711]Can I stay at your house?
[04:04.872]I wanna stay at your house tonight (Your house tonight)