butterflies

lets take it back

back to the days where

not a thing would matter

not a care within the world,

wasnt really thinkin bout her

but my eyes are feelin heavy

like the weight thats on my chest

cuz lately i been feelin empty

but u should know that best

theres a void within my chest,

but my mind full

next time i wanna get attached,

ill be mindful

instead of walkin on a tightrope

with a blindfold

and expecting not to fall into this

everlasting cycle

i swear this is deja vu

bc i know i wrote at least a

hundred songs just about you

i know i probably shouldnt want you

but you help me take my mind off

all the things that i been through

stuck reminiscing bout the times that we had

(thinking about the times that i made you laugh)

stuck reminiscing bout the times that we shared

(every time i close my eyes i see you there)

every time i hear your voice it gives me butterflies

always feeling anxious every time i see your name online

i tell myself these lies

i hope that u don't hear

this song i wrote about you bc i wish that u were here

lying wide awake i wonder why i feel this way

this empty void grows colder almost every single

i'm looking at these 4 white walls

like do i mean a thing to you at all?

take away my ability to feel

because i'd rather numb my senses

than feeling something that ain't real

every night my heart is sinking

or maybe i'm just overthinking

i'm not so sure

maybe im just wasting all my time

because every time we cease communication

i feel so confined

every night i think of you,

wonder if you feel the same way that i do?

every night i think of you,

wonder if you feel the same way that i do?